will this feeling ever go away?
i know that healing is not a linear process
but did not expect it to be so bent out of shape
it hurts so much
i question if i'm doing what is best
even though i know that
i am absolutely not
i have zero idea of how to navitgate this
anomalous attempts at normalcy
i said that i don't want things to change
but now i realize i meant
i don't want to lose the friendships i've built over the past two years
because of someone else's recklessness
why do i have to go through this
why me why me why me