i really don't
i get so many ideas of things to create
things to bring into existence
i get excited about the potential
it's very brief
and then again i'm left
with nothing
.
when will i just do
shouldn't wait for motivation
but it's so hard to start
.
in my head my biggest fan is screaming
DO IT
MAKE THE THING
STOP WRITING THINGS DOWN AND JUST DO THEM
but instead i just lay in bed
rotting away
eventually forgetting it
.
i want to do it for myself
but why wont i
.
i don't mean to
ignore myself
starve my self of creation
buy things and never use them
leave things in my drafts
clog up my notes app
make something halfway
collect dust
wither
.
but i do